Sunday, October 28, 2007



La Mome, Edith Piaf. 小麻雀琵雅芙

終於等到這部電影了!法國傳奇女伶Edith Piaf 的故事,靜靜地躍上大螢幕,卻在我心底盪起陣陣漣漪.記得在很多地方都聽過這首歌曲La Vie En Rose (玫瑰人生),始終不知道原唱者是一位身高僅有147公分,瘦小的女歌手,中氣十足地唱出綺麗的人生卻漾著淡淡的哀傷氛圍.

這部片拍得真好,適合一個人欣賞.大紅的布幕、厚重氣氛、燦爛的水晶吊燈、瘦小駝背的琵雅芙. 掌聲、樂音、喃喃的祈禱與一次又一次生離死別的痛苦嘶嚎,交織出琵雅芙的一生. 她生於舞台,死於舞台.接受觀眾的愛戴與掌聲,卻在幕落後,一個人凝視孤寂的面貌.

小小的琵雅芙必須站在舞台上,才覺得自己在瞬時之間放大了,發光了! 生於貧賤的她,彷彿只有在舞台上才覺得自己像個尊貴的女王. 豐富無悔的人生經驗,使她的歌聲動人,沒有亮麗的外表,確有無限的能量!即使在她身後,仍有與她豪不相識的我,為她的一切深深地感動著.

今天,適合當個女歌手!就是今天了,憑藉多年的走唱經驗,我要當個傳奇女歌手!

聽聽Edith Piaf 唱 La Vie En Rose.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=2-sUzR71wpQ

聽聽Edith Piaf 唱 Je Ne Regrette Rien. (with English Subtitles)
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bby0WAOiEQw

Thursday, October 25, 2007

Sharing my wisdom in life, if any..

I have been busy this week. Well...I am always busy at school but this week I am busier than last week. Why? You asked and wondering the reason for it.

The headmistress invited me to share my life experiences abroad with the whole school. So I need to give speech every morning in front of different students and teachers in the morning session.

It was quite embarrassing becasue there are many teachers who are much more experienced and qualified than I. They should give a speech and share with us, not me! Not the tiny little unimportant me!

However, since the headmistress wanted me to, so I have to. After my speech, some teachers came to me and said emotionally "What a wonderful speech! Well done!". One of them even told me, "You are inspiring! Two of the students were so touched, they were very unhappy about their live before the speech. But your story encouraged them!"

Now I am so happy that my sharing did have some impact on one or two students. I think this is enough. I consider it a big achievement. However, there are also teachers told me that I upset them because of my speech.

At the end of my speech, I asked questions with no answers, such as "Chosse your Job or Dream?" , "Make money or Spend money?", "Foolishness or Bravery?" It's all about the choices in life. I made my choice and I have no regret so far, while some people chose "Reality" rather than "Fulfilling the dreams". Different choices and different lives. There is no right or wrong.

It's all about life. I am no master or expert, I am just a little tiny me who wants live my life to the most.

If they are upset becasue of what I have done, that's because they have regrets in their minds which nobody can ever touch.

Thursday, October 11, 2007



Lust; Caution

天涼了,適合一個人看部電影.秋天適合張愛玲筆下蕭瑟滄鬱的氛圍,適合她筆下大片大片的色彩,適合亂世迷離的上海.

看完這部電影,我覺得拍得好美啊!除此之外,我並沒有太多的感動.或許,你會覺得奇怪,一向感情最深、感覺最多的我,怎麼啦?怎麼一點感動都沒有呢?

老實說,我覺得好納悶啊!馬公英九,為什麼要哽咽著說"想當年,我也為國家犧牲許多..."馬公到底覺得自己是色誘漢奸卻臨時變節的王佳芝?還是,鄺裕民的同鄉小曹(白白被殺掉的小卒子)?亦或是易先生身邊洞察一切的張秘書?

另外,謝公志偉談到文學的層次,他說這是考驗國家忠誠的故事.吉妮說,這些人也太愛為說新辭強說愁了.我覺得,這是一部女人的電影.我不想說這部片當中有多少顯而易見的不合理之處,只想談一談女人心.

朋友說,死了兩個精良的女特務都沒能接近易,憑什麼王輕易就接近了?

我不懷疑王的力量.我想她是雙魚座的女人.雙魚座的她,沒有特務工於心計的謀略.只愛演戲,王是話劇演員,她愛上了自己所扮演的角色而深信不疑,和易在一起的每一刻,她都是麥太太,也只是一個女人.或許,在心底的某一個角落,她沒忘了自己的任務,不過,在最後一刻,她終究只是一個容易愛上帶有負面能量男人的魚座女子.

我不論她的是非,不論她的成敗,只論作為一個女人,她算適得其所,也總算是活過.活過一個自己建構出來的虛幻寫實夢境.我喜歡這樣的結局,我相信,那時的王,心是滿滿的.而易的眼淚,真心與否?我從不想討論,因為王愛過了,那也就夠了...

不死在鴿子蛋下,而在易先生那份若有似無的心...這樣的女人,我想她是魚座的.

"I can't let you burn me out nor I can resist you." This is how I think of Wang in the Lust; Caution.

Wednesday, October 10, 2007

台北的溫度,異鄉的感受.

今天,這個城市有一種特別的溫度.

我想是20度吧,是英國夏天和煦的溫度.

一個人出門,心裡有個模糊的目標.

心該是鬆的,走著,卻突然覺得這裡不再是我熟悉的城市.

街上走著同文同種的人,卻覺得陌生.

一個人,不需要說話的勇氣與力氣,牽掛著異鄉的自己.

心重了,還是一個人的電影.

無所謂愛與不愛,快樂與否,這是一個人的城市.

我一個人,一個人的我.

一個人的城市,有一種特別的溫度,是20度...

是英國夏天和煦的溫度與微風.

Saturday, October 06, 2007

Happy Birthday!! Terry! My sweet Lao-Bang!

推論...

記得有一次在辦公室裡,吉妮突然間嚷嚷著好想吃麥當勞啊...
有個老師說,唉..年輕人才會想吃麥當勞,我們老人一點都不覺得麥當勞好吃!

今天一早,吉妮媽起床後告訴吉妮,"我夢見自己去吃麥當勞,吃了一個套餐,超好吃的."

如果這樣推論起來,原來吉妮媽跟吉妮一樣年輕ㄟ!真高興!

呵呵..