Me and my parents in Palm Springs.

It was a sunny day. We had big big breakfast at a local restaurant, Ruby's. It was delicious and we all had great fun. My mom was surprised with the portion of American breakfast!! She said, "No wonder Americans are so big!!" Haha...

The bridges of Madison County. 麥迪遜之橋.

Everything about Robert became so erotic to me...

Francisca told her children of her 4-day love affair with Robert; the photographer visited the town in the summer of 1965, in 3 notebooks.

It was about 10 years ago when I first watched this movie and was so touched by it that I couldn't help crying over it. I loved the way the film was presented; I loved the way that their love was cherished; I loved the way it showed affection with the warmth of a summer breeze and I loved the way a close-up shot of a hand struggling to tell viewers how Francisca must have felt sitting next to her husband seeing Robert in the pouring rain, waiting for her.

Last night, it was shown on TV and I cheerfully watched. I didn't cry as much as I did. It didn't touch me at the same way it moved me 10 years ago. I cried knowing that I will never find a relationship as romantic as that. One can argue it is only in the film that makes it rosy and romantic, however, I do believe that there must be true love in the real world as well in the film. It's just that I have no confidence of finding it.

Even I have once deeply in love and thought I've found the right one. I was only fooling myself by then. I have been angry since the day I had to part that relationship. Over the years, I kept telling myself that I can't and shouldn't be angry since it was my fault to have allowed myself been fooled by the one I loved. I knew he didn't seem to be the right one but when you're in that situation, you just had no way to escape but being trapped inside the labyrinth of your own.

I've always thought that the reason why I am angry was because we've never said a proper goodbye in our on-and-off relationship over the years. Thinking that he did owe me a sincere apology. However, it seems rather ridiculous since I wasn't loved and how would he be held responsible for not arranging a sensible goodbye? Good lord that I do have the courage to admit this though I still feel shamful about myself.

I probably should say sorry but what for? I am angry just because I can't get a sensible sorry from him. But whose fault was it then since it's all too fair in love and war. I shall be a happy grown-up for I am equipped with a heart filled with the warmth of an early summer breeze. I shall smile and look forward to every new experience of life.

單一選項？多重選擇？

那一天，躺在床上看書，眼睛累了，恍惚間，我決定小寐一會兒．在半睡半醒間，突然被恐慌襲擊．我想像自己年屆天命之年，膝下無人、無業，突然很害怕衰老與死亡．

朋友說，啊！原來你一點也不獨立．

是阿！我可以隻身到異地生活與旅行，但是我從來不覺得自己獨立．我不是一個獨立的人．我可以孤單、可以一個人，但是我不是一個沒有其他人也能活下去的人．

現在的我，面臨人生的重大選擇．我很貪心，總想把所有的興趣結合在一起，又能做自己想做的事情，又能獲得金錢的酬報．想要自由，又想要牽絆，我想我是個貪心的人．

我能做的工作不算少，但是哪一樣才是我可以持續一輩子的呢？生活中，常會有＂啊！這個很適合當教材，上課用一定很有趣．這個收集起來給學生看！＂的感覺，不知道這是當了三年老師的職業病，還是我真的那麼喜歡教書？

我想我是喜歡教書的，可是現實的環境裡，對我而言，教越久越傷．
我喜歡廣播，但目前為止，僅限於成就感和興趣而非金錢的報酬．
我想服務兒童與弱勢，我想到山區教書，但是，受限於法規，我沒資格．

我想要招待我家人朋友一起旅行，一起享受生活．
我喜歡生命中的歡愉，旅行、美景、美食、美酒．

我想或許我是恣意喜樂與縱情的人．或者，我希望我是個能縱情喜樂的人．

我不是一個隨便就能結交到朋友的人，我沒有太多朋友，但大多數的朋友都能推心置腹，我很幸運，有這樣的朋友．但總覺得自己的生活圈小了點，希望自己能認識更多的人．

我在想，我是愛慕虛榮的．我希望有一天，能某一個專業的領域上受人敬重，希望有一天，我也是個能叫出名號的人物．或許我是愛慕虛榮的，這是一種抱負還是野心呢？　

我了解沒有一項工作是完美的，但是我必須做我有熱情而且還能忍受的工作．

記得有個朋友感嘆過，她說：我們是沒得選，所以只好這樣，你是選擇太多，不知道要做哪一樣？你真好笑ㄟ．．

是啊，如果我現在說，我真希望自己只有一個選項，一定有很多人想揍我吧！

我聽過很多人說羨慕我的生活．的確！我想我是把人生過得隨興了點．或許在很多人眼中，我還是個隨意揮霍的人．但人生只有這一次，如果我不能嘗試自己想做的事情，那麼，在我閉上眼睛那一刻，我能安心嗎？

我不夠勇敢，卻希望浪跡天涯．我不夠獨立，卻希望不受拘束．
我不夠樂觀，卻希望恣意歡笑．我不夠好，卻想像自己是個優秀的人．

似乎是有點糟ㄋㄟ．．

郭先生，娶我吧！我符合你五大擇偶條件之一喔！呵呵．．

完全就想太多了．．．

Esater Egg ! 復活蛋!!

This is the Easter Egg I received from my colleague Annet. She's so kind to give me this Easter Gift with my name on it. How am I supposed to eat it when it is so beautifully made? Oh.. my! It's a very nice surprise from Annet and I jsut want to share it with all of you.

這是同事安妮阿姨送我的復活節彩蛋，上面還寫了我的名字．安妮阿姨人真好！不過，這麼漂亮的蛋，我怎麼捨得吃呢？所以趕緊幫她照張相，跟大家一起分享！